Innocence

My darkest moments have not been personal tragedies, but points in a growing realization that the majority of humanity has not been as fortunate as myself. At one such point, I wrote the following lines:

I am a straight stick

In a crooked awful world.

One day I will snap.

I start to snap every time another divorce occurs in my extended family, every time another friend starts to make the same stupid mistakes as millions before her, every time the church falls short.

But I realize that losing one's naiveté is not the same as losing one's innocence. The innocence of the Holy Spirit is what keeps me blameless in this crooked and depraved generation. So I choose to live like a dove – and He shields me, even as my heart is breaking.